It kinda sunk in

It apparently took me 24 hours to begin to realise, that our relationship really is over. So now I'm just crying.

I need to know why. And at the same time I don't want to know, because it hurts. But I think it will help me to get over him. I knew that one of the reasons why Heikki and I broke up was that we wanted different things from life. Back then I had a strong desire to live abroad and we were thinking of applying to universities in different towns. It wouldn't have worked in the long run. Of course there were other reasons, for instance some stupid first-relationship mistakes.

I went shopping today and found a gorgeous skirt. It was weird to see how life actually does go on. The world doesn't give a damn. I can't really explain myself.

I also went running, and it felt good. I'll just have to do things that give me pleasure. But I'm not going to succumb to junk food and chocolate, like I did two years ago.